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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 15:48

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Comes on , in middle age.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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He knew the spot.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

We all went to grammer schools

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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All the time i was locked up.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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And i lived it daily.

My family never makes their pension either.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She loved him until the end.

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Was to survive, this bastard.

She wouldn,t have been !

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I couldn’t, believe it.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I said to her

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What did i know ?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Would this be the day?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I waited trembling.

So whats the point in blame.

So, i spoilt her more .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

We were not on the streets..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Ive learnt so much.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

This is soul school!.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She was in good health!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She found it foreign!.

She married twice! .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But it wasn’t much.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I will be 64.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My life is so biszare .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I write beautiful poetry .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was scared of men, in general

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

When she asked me how she looked .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But, we were locked up after school.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was very sick at this time too.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Who then, do I blame.?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As i do to all so called friends.?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Im still living with it.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I was 9 years of age.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I was seconnd youngest,

Put me off passion for life!!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I have no regrets .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One cannot live in the past .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

It was going to be , some day.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I don,t even have a pension.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

(And it was in our own minds.)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.